and for some reason, I don’t know if I believe you.
You can’t say things like that.
You can’t do things like this anymore
You lost the right to be cute with me when you made the decision to break my heart.
You don’t get to leave me on your hook like a safety net
I’m no bodies back bitch
You don’t get to look at me the way I want you to
You don’t get to tell me you miss me because you’re the reason i’m gone.
The world doesnt fall at your feet when you want it to and i know I sure as hell won’t.
I have wanted you since Valentines Day
From our first kiss and our first time having sex
To our last kiss and the last time we had sex.
Even until now, somewhere deep down.
Which is why you can’t do this to me.
If you do these things to me, I’ll probably come back to you if you asked me to
And then, you’ll probably make me miserable again.
You’ll leave me lonely and wishing I had more of you just like the first time around
But it’ll be okay, just like it was before, because I had crazy, strong feelings for you.
And because you saved me from becoming someone I never wanted to be.
So i’ll feel in debt to you and i’ll stay until, just like before, you dont want me anymore.
You can’t think about kissing my neck because I think about it.
I think about you in those ways still and its exhausting.
To want to have sex with other people but knowing that it won’t be as amazing.
I can’t be the same person you are.
I can’t be such a douche bag to you.
if i wanted, I could probably sleep with Rob.
I like him and he makes me happy.
The worst part is, I care about you and I could never do that to you
Not to mention, I care about him and I never want him feeling like he has to worry. Honestly, he would have to.
I’m over you and your bullshit but somehow, even without trying, you make the butterflies come back.
And I don’t want your butterflies because the last time I had them, it was over before I knew it.
I wont put myself through that again
I’m better than that and I’m better than you.
So please, stop making me want you.
Stop looking at me with your ice blue eyes, ones that I cant help but get lost in
And stop being cute with me.
Because I wanted all of these things before but you made the decision to break my heart instead.